Hey readers! 8 weeks down, only 4 more to go! I’m going to keep this post short because I covered a lot in my last blog post for my midterm recap. The past two weeks have revolved around increasing my caseload, taking on more responsibility, and working towards achieving my midterm goals. I am also starting to work on the final project that will be part of this fieldwork experience (more on that later). Today, I’m going to share a story from week 7.
Struggles & Doubts
I know it probably seems like I am always 100% confident and all about OT, but I want to be completely transparent. I have doubts sometimes, too. I think everyone does. During week 7, I had a pretty rough day where nearly all of my kiddos were dysregulated, I felt dysregulated, and I went into a tailspin of anxiety about whether I will be able to find a job, pay off my student loans, or if I even want to do this.
I was definitely in the “Red Zone” by the end of that day, and I had to be my own OT and use my “tools” to get back into the “Green Zone.” I took an outdoor barre class, sang Taylor Swift on the way home, turned on my essential oil diffuser, and read a book before bed.
The next day, I had more tough kiddos. But instead of feeling overwhelmed and like I didn’t know what I was doing, I felt confident. I was able to get through to my kiddos, modify treatment plans as needed in the moment, meet kids where they were at, and co-regulate with them. I debriefed with my supervisor after a particularly hard session and she told me how proud she was of me, and that she is excited for me to be an OT one day.
I know I love OT. I know I’m good at it. I know I love working with kids. It’s okay to have tough days, but it’s important to be able to use our own OT advice and use our “tools” when we need to. You don’t have to be perfect all the time!
Feel free to share any similar experiences or your favorite “tools” in the comments below. Thanks for reading!